Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Leadership Scholarship Essay

Prompt:
An essay in which you address the following:
  • a personal leadership statement;
  • what you have learned about yourself and others from your leadership experiences;
  • specific leadership skills and behaviors that you would like to develop while a student at Hendrix; and
  • goals to be achieved while using your leadership talent as a Hendrix student
Boring, right?

Essay:

Leadership is perhaps best described as the ability to inspire others to work toward a common goal.


Inspiration moves.


That is why leaders, such as Martin Luther King Jr., were able to achieve goals of such great magnitude. He inspired many by setting an example and by teaching.


I aspire to lead by example.


Performing to the best of your ability not only brings rise to a plethora of possibilities for yourself, but also shows others that they themselves can accomplish more than they already have. In newspaper, this was a crucial aspect. Oftentimes staff members would write until all possible constructs of words seemed to have been used. Writer's block is a killer, especially when you're on deadline. For the editors, including myself, it was key that no matter how much we fantasized about throwing our keyboard to the ground, we pushed through our blocks and kept writing. If we were to succumb to the block, our staff members may believe that there truly was no way around it, and the printers would run without any copy. Our paper would be nothing but grey blocks. The blocks would win.


Through this, and experiences similar to it, I learned a very simple lesson. I can achieve much more than I think I can. The realm of possibility extends beyond the borders that I set for myself. You just have to push those borders.


I aspire to lead by teaching.


During my last stage managing gig, I had an assistant who was going to take over the role of stage manager during the coming years as I was graduating that year. The basics were easy to teach–this is how you take blocking notes, this is what you need to check before every performance, this is what you need to have handy at all times–but the biggest lesson was one I was just beginning to grasp myself: almost everything "impossible" only seems that way. During one performance of Bye Bye Birdie, an entire set piece collapsed in the middle of a scene change. A pause. An expletive. A moment when the show doesn't seem like it can continue. But you shove the actor onstage, pick up the broken pieces, and keep going. That was the lesson my trainee received that evening.


I aspire to lead by inspiration.


The most memorable leadership experience I have, however, is one in which I led my friend out of a very dark place. A few years after the fact, a dear friend of mine told me that one of the only reasons she had not ended her life was me. I asked her why, to which she replied that I inspired her, since I had, at one point, also been enveloped in the lonely black of depression, but I set the example that is was possible to push through it, and that I had taught her that no matter how impossible things seemed, the ability to keep going was always there.


I aspire to lead by lifestyle.


Leadership does not simply come with a title or position of power. Perhaps one of the most interesting things about leading is that you can be a leader without even realizing it.


I hope that the skills in leadership that I already possess and that I strive to posses will inspire others at Hendrix and beyond to lead by lifestyle as well. The common goal? A world without confines, without boundaries. A chain reaction of thought, choice, and action that defies the dark that seemingly blankets this earth.


Less boring, in my opinion. ;)

Irony

I'm sitting here, just beginning my leadership scholarship application (due tomorrow, shows you I'm not completely over this procrastination thing) and I get an email from Hendrix saying this:

Hi Kelly,

Our first Scholar Recognition Day is coming up on Saturday, February 18.

We hope you’ll be able to join us for one of these special celebrations with other members of the Class of 2016 who have been awarded Hendrix scholarships. We’ll kick things off at 8:30 a.m. with registration and a Student Services Fair in the Student Life and Technology Center. Throughout the day you’ll have the opportunity to learn more about Hendrix through roundtable-style discussions with current students and faculty, discuss options for financing your Hendrix education with our director of financial aid, meet the classmates who will join you at Hendrix next fall, check out your future “home away from home,” and participate in a special luncheon and certificate presentation.


Haha. I'm not entirely sure what this means since I have not yet received any notice of acceptance from Hendrix. But we'll see, eh?



Hendrix Campus

Monday, January 30, 2012

What time is it?

11:00 pm on Jan. 30

but in Auckland, New Zealand it's 17:00 on Jan. 31

Isn't that cool!?

On my flights I really will be time traveling! I will lose an entire day on the way to Auckland, but gain almost an entire day on the way back home.

Here's what I mean:

I'll leave Auckland at 7 pm on Jul 20th
Travel for roughly 20 hours
I'll arrive in Nashville at 11 pm on Jul 20th

time machine time machine time machine.


I'll be here in a little over a month!

Saturday, January 28, 2012

The Descendants

Good.

Completely uncontrived.

It is the only movie I've seen that is not exploitive to the human condition.


It hits you in a way that you may not expect. You sit there and at some point you realize all you're watching is truth.


The theater was packed, so the three of us that came together had to separate and sit alone in the crowded mass. After the movie was over I began to exit but then stopped and searched for my mom. I found her, and went upstream to go sit next to her. I had to cross in front of a few teenage boys, who then proceeded to continue looking over at me. I wondered if it was because they thought I was pretty, or if they were just confused by my coming up and sitting down just to watch the credits.

I did it out of love and tradition, so if they were wondering the latter, that's the answer.
In my family, we wait until the last credit has rolled to remove ourselves from the theater. And simply because we weren't seated together, and the third person in our party had already exited, didn't mean we were going to break that tradition.

After the last credit rolled, we got up and left; completely uncontrived.

p.s. The beer I brewed with Alex is now bottled! In two weeks it should be ready for tasting. :)

Friday, January 27, 2012

For those that like to know what's happenin'

I got accepted to Eckerd College and Warren Wilson College!
Yay!

2/6

Doin' good so far.

And I got a phone call from my admissions officer at Hendrix telling me how much fun it was to read my application. So that's pretty awesome too.

Another new thing?

I went to a foam rollers Pilates class this morning and my back feels great! Unfortunately, I can't say the same for my thighs... those foam rollers–damn them!

Monday, January 23, 2012

Refuge in the Rain

Brutal love.
It clings to a death,
a death that will never be reborn;
to a nothing that will never restore;
to the ash that will never catch flame.


Death. It looms,
Always.
Unprovoked,
It will still come.


I am nothing to him now.
The one who seeks happiness in only dark places.


dukkha. anicca.

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Look, over to your right!

Yes, very good. See that? It says follow by email. Now you can get updates about my new posts! If I add something to my blog, you will be notified! No more guessing games.

Just submit your email address and vuala!

Now get to it!

:)

Spring

As the end of my gap in my gap year comes to a close, (a forced, close, mind you. There are no set dates, no actual pre-set plans, I'm just getting restless of this "vacation" and know it's time to begin another adventure. Otherwise my fears of wasted time will come to fruition.) ... WOW that was a long digression, let me begin again.

As the end of my gap in my gap year comes to a close, I'm finally assessing my options.

The number one plan and desire on my list of possibilities is to travel and work in New Zealand for four months.
Learning how to travel independently, immersing myself in another culture, gaining new perspectives, continuing my work with the earth (ideally I'll be working on a farm, orchard, or vineyard), facing some fears, having some fun, and growing even more than I already have this year, in ways I am not yet aware of.

The problem with this, is I'm not entirely sure I can get a visa that will let me work without jeopardizing my ability to go back to NZ and do a longer working holiday. You see, the working holiday visa is good for 12 months, but it's a once in a lifetime visa. And quite honestly, I don't want to waste a 12 month visa on four months. I'd much rather save it so that later I can go back for the full 12 months.

So I'm looking into a way around this. Perhaps there are other working visas I could get for New Zealand.

The number two plan and desire on my list of possibilities is to travel and work in Australia for four months.
It's basically all the same things as NZ, except it's in Australia which, for some reason, just isn't as appealing to me. But hey, they've got a 4 month working visa. Fits my schedule perfectly.

In either scenario, New Zealand or Australia, I'd be going through BUNAC. It is a little costlier, but it gives peace of mind to me, and to my parents. So I believe it is worth is.

Here's their site: http://www.bunac.org/usa/

And the most recent desire and possibility on my list that is not yet ranked–studying buddhism, developing my growing life philosophy, and writing a book on the subject. So yeah, this one's a little more out of the water, but it excites me like no other. Jen always said her gut reaction to things was crying...for example when she saw an ad for an intern on a farm, she just started crying. That's how she knew she needed to pursue it.
Thinking of writing the book makes me cry. Perhaps it's the same thing.
My philosophy is still very under-developed, but it is growing, especially when I read literature on buddhism.

The three ways I can put to describe it are:

Striking a balance between surface reality and spiritual reality

Finding enlightenment in the "real world"

Attaining true bliss without the sacrifice of all earthly pleasures

Today I did my morning routine comprised of 50 sit-ups and, since it's the weekend, a 15-30 minute meditation (which often ends in failed attempts, but it's all in the practice. It'll get better). I finished with some chai tea while reading "coffee with the buddha," and while reading I had to stop and pause to think or to write as waves of new ideas flooded my mind. I've been dabbling in creating my own personal philosophy since the beginning of this year, but it wasn't until this morning that it really exploded into one big concept of idea. And I feel that my learnings can be turned into teachings and of course, those teachings could be turned into a book.

It's marvelous, really.

That is where I am, though. Iz all goood!

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Why I had negative associations with KY: as told by my sister

THE BIG ADVENTURE by Rose

Hello. My name is Kate. I am a sixteen year old high school student. My family and I just took a long trip-in fact, we moved everything we owned over a thousand miles across the country. But it wasn't you're average move, no, no, no. Here's how it went:

My little sister and I had to go to school right up until the day that we began our journey. That meant homework and absolutely no time for anything else. Because we were leaving all of our friends behind, our parents were trying to be nice about letting visit with them, but there are so many of them and so few of us and so little time and so much to do and...

So we did our best to do everything, despite all that. But inevitably, the last day before the moving truck came was awful. My dad's cousin came to help us pack, and the whole day was simply awful. It was horribly hectic, and it was just the beginning of it all. the next day the moving truck came it was pretty much impossible to stay out of the way. and what's worse is that I hadn't finished my homework yet, and they had packed everything I needed to do it. So I went to my friend Iona's house, and she was kind enough to let me mooch off of her for the afternoon. I sepnt the next couple of days bouncing from a totally empty house to school to doctor's offices to the to a surprise going away party people threw for me, to friends houses and on and on...It was really happy and really sad. And then moving day came.

the mornign was a let's - rush - around - and - get - evrything - that - didn't - get - on - the - moving - truck - into - the - cars-type morning. No one was in very good moods, and it took forever to get everything together and in the right cars and secured and all that, and it was horribly sad-we loved the house that we were in. We made it out of the house and to the dumpster across the street before we had to stop to readjust the "arch" as we called it-the van that had all of our pets in it. My dad was driving the arch, and I was driving the little blue car, named Mackenzie (After Mackenzie pass in oregon, whose waters matched the color of the car....) Once we got back on the road, we made it maybe a football field and a fourth up the (same) road bfore Dad pulled over, jumped out of the car, slamming the door and yelling "F^(#!!!!" at the top of his lungs, storming around to the other side of the car, throwing open the sliding door, grabbing the cooler and slamming it down on the ground, and then Flinging his suitcase across the field were we had stopped. Its amazing how stress works.

THe cooler (full of water from the melting ice) had fallen over and spilled into the cat litter, making it clump and be useless. Oh well, that's not a huge loss, but it was the principle of the thing. things just weren't going right. My little sister meanwhile was at a friends house so she wouldn't have to sit through the closing. But at last we got there-to the attorney's office, anyway...and we met the lady that was about ot own our precious home. Turns out that she majored in abstract painting at the MFA, but had to give it up 'cause she wasn't making any money. But the whole event was jus so surreal, and upseting. On our way out, we realized that it was over, we oculden't go home anymore-it wasn't our home. We didn't have a home now. WE had a house waiting for us over a thousand miles away, but it wasn't a home yet. On our way out of the attorney's office, we noticed a painting on the wall. It was a huge, beautiful painting of a house that used to be tha Tax collector's office for 'our' town something like a hundred years before. It was my friend Blue's old house.

Before we went to pick up my sister, we had to get something to eat. We went to freakin' Taco Bell, becasue we couldn't go home. SO so so surreal. that whole day was just surreal. My Family has driven long distances on vacations before, and I had the definte vacationing/travel feel that comes with long car rides and stops at gas stations-except this time, the gas station we were stopping at was right in our town-right by our home that wasn't our home anymore.

While My dad and I fixed up the arch, gave the critters food and water and repacked it so it was more secure, my mom went to get my sister. She reported that the friend she had been staying with had gotten sick halfway through her stay. She had the stomach flu.

So finally, we were off. We drove down all of the roads for the last time, and then we were on our way.

WE had wlakie-talkies in the cars so we could stay in touch. We kept track of liscense plates from all of the different states that we saw-a traditional travel game for us. we traveled long and hard, and finally got a hotel room having knocked about four hours off of what we thought was going to be a sixteen hour journey. the next morning we overslept.

Waking up at the exact time we had expected to be back on the road, we got a late start around 9:30 am. It was a saturday, and traffic was fairly light. We piled everyone back in the car and headed out ofr our longest day of driving. Again, I was driving the little blue car.we got about two or three hours in that morning-and then the trouble began.

Mom had put a tape in the tape deck, and suddenly it started to freak out. it kept clicking like it was changing sides, but it wasn't recognizing anything on the tape. (Keep in mind, this whole time it's raining off and on-throughthis whole story, rain.) Then the cruise control just stopped working. suddenly. it just quit. And the windshield wipers started to go Vv-ee-rr-yy slowly. Oh, shit. said I in my head, The car is going to die. The same thing had happened to me about two weeks earlier under exactly opposite condiditons-it was hot, sunny and dry the first time, but it was the same situation. All of the electrical equipment suddenly stops working, and then the car can't function and just dies.

SO we radio over to dad and let him know that we have to get off the highway, like, NOW, and proceed to do so. At the bottom of the exit ramp, ther is an intersection with both a stop sign and stop lights. I knew that if I stopped, the car wouldn't start again, but I couldn't just barrel into traffic like that, so I had to stop. and the car died. boom, just like that. When you turned the key, nothing would happen. it wouldn't turn over or anything. So my dad used the van to push the car to the saftey of a driveway at the other side of the interesection, where we waited for the towtruck. The tow truck arrived, and we explained what happened (And that we thought it was probably the alternator, which he agreed with,) and he agreed to tow us to the nearest car place, which just so happened to be a Pep boys only 1/2 mile down the road. Seem to good to be true? well, it was. He got the towing apparatus down and was attempting to adjust it to fit the car, when he realized that his tow truck had broken down. So now we were sitting there with a dead car, a dead tow truck, and an arch full of totally freaked out animals. Yi-pee. So the tow truck guy calls his boss-a guy named Fred. (There were stickers on his towtruck saying "When you car's dead, call Fred") Luckily, fred is very punctual in arriving on the scene, spends maybe 3 minutes there, and leaves. The other guy then shouts "And that's why he's DA MAN!!!" At last, we make it to pep boys. yeah! to kill time, we went and ate at the chinese restaraunt at the top of the hill. By the time we came back the car was (GASP) Done! Again too good to be true? of course. They said that in order to install the new alternator, they had to disconnect a computer part. this is ok, they said, the car just has to relearn things like idle speed and such, so it will probably stall a little bit, but just keep driving, it will be fine. So, we're on the road again. or are we? We get back onto the highway and downt the road maybe a mile or so, and it starts to pour. naturally, mom (who is drving now,) goes to put on the windshield wipers. but alas! they do not work. they don't even budge. Then the lights go out of the control panel, and the car starts to lag. At first, we think its stalling, but as we attempt to get off the highway (since visibility without the wipers was basically 0) the car dies completely. same damn thing that happened the first time. Al the electrical equipment dies, and then the car does too. so this time dad has to push us the rest of the way down the (extrememly ong) exit ramp, with mom and I in a joint effort to see something in order that we might not hit it. this time we were really stuck. there were absolutely no landmarks anywhere around where we were, and we hadn't a clue what road we were on. Somehow, we managed to amuse ourselves for nearly a half an hour while dad drove around trying to figure out how to tell the AAA people how to find us. When they finally do, guess who it is? the same guy who was driving the broken tow truck. and where does he take us? back to the same pep boys at the bottom of the hill that the chinese restauraunt was on. This time we waited for a very long time for the car to be done. Guess what they tell us? it's a computer problem. only a dealership can get you new computer parts - or even fix them! well, now, ain't that just dandy? and its a saturday (evening, at this point,) and all the dealerships are closed until monday. so they sent out a towtruck to take the car to a dealership, and we can call on monday and explain our situation. The sent the same guy again. this time when he got out of his truck, he said, "I'm George, by the way." So we put as much stuff as we could in the van, and George took our car to a dealership. WE decide that we'll just have to rent a car and continue on our way (we have to be at the new house by sunday afternoon, and we've just been informed that our original calulations of time were incorrect, our destination was still 16 hours away!) We thought that would be the best solution-and then we'd just have to come back sometime and get the car. oh well, at least we can still get there. Unless every single car rental place within a hundred miles is closed until monday. which they were. oh, yea. We even went to the airport to look for an open car rental place, and there was one counter with someone behind it-they were supposedly closed, but there was someone behind the counter, who would have let us rent a car-had they any left. which they didn't. So, we made the decision to just pile into the van with all our stuff (Except the stuff that we hadn't been able to fit and was now awaiting our return in the car) (keep in mind, we had only planned for seating for two people in each vehicle.) We've also lost about six or so hours of driving time by now, and still have 16 hours of driving time to get there by the next afternoon. In the dark, we arranged all of our stuff in a reasonalbe manner, with two people laying down in the back, one in the passenger seat, and one drivning. There were also all of the critters, as well, and I'm still not sure just how we did it. but the adventure is not nearly over, oh, no. TO make up for the lost time, we decided to drive all night. We've done this before, its not fun, but it gets you there. It would have been fine had everything gone smoothly from there. But the fog on the highway was completely unpredictable. it would be perfectly clear in one second, and the next, visibilty would drop down to less than a yard in front of the car. the going was slow, especially since the road was full of huge trucks, who had to slow down to 20miles an hour to avoid hitting anything that they couldn't see due to the fog, but then they would set the crusie control (which I didn't know those big trucks had until, upon setting the cruise control in our van, we stayed equidistant form a truck for nearly a half an hour) and then wouldn't bother to speed up when the fog cleared. And on top of that, there was road work being done on the highway for nearly 3/4 of the trip-so there was only one lane. Things seemed to be looking up, though, as we were actually on our way again. That was before my sister woke up with the stomach flu. We pulled off the highway and spent about an hour at a gas station dealing with her sickness and trying to decide what to do-do we press on, or do we get a hotel since my sister was sick, which would mean that we would have to drive all day the next day no matter what to beat the moving truck to our new house. (which, I might add, I had never seen before.) My sister fell asleep in the car before we made a decision, so we decided to drive until she woke up and take it from there. Luckily, she's a kid and heals quickly, so when she woke up the nest morning, she felt perfectly fine. by that time, we were almost "home." we stopped for a nice breakfast and then set out on the final leg of our journey. We got to our house in the late mornign or early afternoon. we'd made it. everything was wonderful from here on in. in theory. THe real estate agent arrived with the key, opened the door to our beautiful house...and we walked in to an absoulutely filthy, smelly old house. the previous owners had left litter in the yard and trash in the house, they hadn't even bothered to vacuum the place. THey left their refridgerator in the kitchen, and it was so dirty it had fuzzy mold growing in the freezer, despite the fact that it was still plugged in and running. So this was how we came to our new house: we spent our last week in our old house doing nothing but cleaning, have a horible trip down and arrive on absolutely no sleep, completely fried, to have to do a whirlwind clean to get the place ready to recieve furniture and make it livable. over the course of that afternoon, (with some help from our really nice real estate agent who felt horrible that the previous owners were such slobs and so rude) we cleaned as much as we could, and were still at it at 7:00 the next morning when the truck arrived. During that day and the next two, we found several other bad-luck or whatever things. This house has old fashioned phone jacks, and the previous owners had taken the adaptors with them, so we had no way to plug in our phones. The don't sell adaptors any more, at least around here, so dad had to buy modern phone jacks and manually change any jack we actually want to use, and we're going to have to do some rewiring as well. The kitchen and bathrooms haven't been fixed since the 70's, and the toilet in one bathroom (Which is literally small enough that only one relatively small person can fit in it at a time- and quite uncomfortably at that) the toilet leaks. The water heater in the house was 30 years old and really only heated things to a luke warm temperature (And to anyone who may not know this already: water heaters are supposed to be upgraded every 10 to 12 years...) SO now we spent the money for a new one. The previous owners taste was atrocious-the kitchen is covered in fruit, the wallpaper is fruit print, the borders around the room are a different fruit print, the covers on the light switches and outlets are porcelain (that doesn't fit, the lightswitch is buried in it, you can't reach it to turn on the light) painted with fruit-even the light fixtue on the cieling had ceramic fruit on it. (I was sitting on the counter looking at it and I thought: "it's very fru-fru. and its fruit. its fru-fru-fruit.") the rest of the house is leaves and carpets that don't match anything. except for my sister's room, which is hearts and stars and chalkboards. Her bedroom and the hallway have wooden floors, and the bathroom is carpeted. the big bathroom (which is a relative name, by the way-its smaller than the small bathroom in our old house) has the bathtub in it-but I don't think the room originally had a bathroom in it-they seem to have simply built a tile wall in the middle of the room and extended a shower stall to it. The previous owners also left us all of their toxic waste to deal with-and they certainly had a lot of it. Meanwhile, the car people weren't cooperating. it was phone tag with them-as well as with UPS who had attempted o bring us a package before we lived here and sent it back tothe sender-which was staples, and nobody has a clue what the hell the package was, or where it is now...and we went on a quest for a phone book. Dad attempted to borrow one from our new neighbors, but when he went to thier house (oh, get this...)he could hear then talking inside but they wouldn't come to the door. yeah. While I was typing this all up, I had to take a break-and in that interval, the computer monitor died. (Now we have a new one.) also, the refridgerator (Now ours...) couldn't be hooked up to the water lines because they didn't make the connector parts anymore. (By the way...each of these projects takes approximately one day at least to be solved. most of them more. the little things like the freakin' nut blot thing take one whole day...) then the plumber comes, we finally get the right part for the fridge, and we find out the damn thing os on the hot water line, which you can't drink from or anything so we had to wait to use that until we could hook the pipe up to the cold water line. The screen door handle is broken. their is poison ivy covering an entire section of the yard. My parents bedsheets seem to have simply disappeared into thin air-those still haven't been found, as we speak... basically everything we touch falls apart. I can't expalin it at all-you know those little things that words can't describe, the moods, the tiny little decisions that we don't even realize we're making, the stubbig of toes, (or in my case, the slicing of it with a file cabinet) little frustrations...we've been positibely plagued by them lately, we've had not but bad luck. Today we even decided to treat ourselves to some ice cream. the local ice cream place around here is Baskin robbins. there are three of them very close to my house. we drive past them all the time. Except now that we're looking for them, and despite the fact that we've got their addresses written down on a piece of paper, we drive around for a long time without finding a single one. they just vanished. boom. just like Brigadoon. we never did find them. yesterday at quarter to one in the morning, the vase of flowers we had on the kitchen table sponateously dies. (i.e. shatters into little bits spewing water and glass all over, and abandoign the flowers to a noisy mess.) WE've got phantom light switches and burnt out lightbulbs, you name it, we got it. We finally got the car back, and hopefully that will continue to work. The worst of it was yesterday (which was, contrary to the heading on this page thursday the 28th of june ) when I learned via e-mail that a friend of mine from where my journey started had passed away the night before. He would have been a senior in high school at the start of things in the fall. that was probably the worst of everything thats happened. Then, today, Lightning was abig factor in our luck. Lighting struck directly above the car while we were in it (Scary scary scary, ears ringing) Later on, as well, we discovered that (we think) our house was struck by lightning, and fried the TV. yi-pee. We were told by an astrologist friend of ours that this is all happening because we travled durign mercury's somehting-or-other, and that's a very bad thing. and because of something blah blah blah, this will continue (though the mercury thing is done) until the next full moon. SO, perhaps there will be more before the next full moon rolls around. The hopefully end. I'm sure I left something out of my story, but I am too tired at the momet to remember. THat's my story! I hope you enjoyed it! goodnight, now. Rose